It began with the act of chewing gum. My mother used to buy multiple Costco sized packages of gum to keep up with demand. I chewed gum constantly, once one piece was out- another was in. I was so good at it that I often fell asleep chewing gum, and woke up still chewing it. This went on for years.
At 15, I got a job where gum chewing was not allowed. I noticed some of my co-workers had lip chap/balm and somewhere in there I started buying lip chap while phasing out my gum usuage.
I kept buying lip chap, then blistix, then nivea, sometimes even an all natural type. I had different preferences at different times.
I carried lip chap with me through many jobs, college, home life. I became so good at it, I could open, apply, close the lid all with one hand AND in less than a few seconds. It became so automatic that I only became aware of my actions after repeated reapplying gained me strange looks from others.
One summer, I got a job at a certain fast food place and the pants did not have pockets; nor did the shirts. I was desperate to find a way to carry my lip chap. I bought a tiny cheap pocket knife that came with a belt holder, and used the holder for my lip chap while at work.
Whenever I run low I start to lick my lips more than usual and run through what is left very quickly. I often cannot think straight nor about anything else until I get more. It has caused many innconviences and a great deal of money at 1-3 dollars a tube. At the worst part of my addiction, I emptied two tubes a day. If I take the average of 2 dollars a tube, and use a conservative 1 a day, times 7 days a week, times four weeks in a month (28 days a month is innacurate but you get the point) that is $56 dollars of lip chap a month. If I times that by 12 months of the year, that is $672 on lip chap. Now that may not seem much, but I turned 25 this year. That is right, I may have spent around $6,720 dollars on lip chap in 10 years. Granted, this is not very accurate due to sales, varriations in my addiction at different points, days of the month, leap year, etc.. you get the picture.
I am finally done. I do not want this anymore. I am currently sipping water everytime the urge to use has come up. Maybe I will learn to subsitute water sipping for lip chap, as I did gum all those years ago. Day 2. The advantage of water is it will help hydrate my lips, when my body reacts in shock to having no artificial barrier it has been provided for 10 years. I am doing well not licking my lips. It is difficult to find automatic tendiencies. But I am trying.
Wish me luck.
Oh, I never chew gum anymore. Makes my jaw sore now.